A song that made me CRY

CLENCHING A TIGHT FIST
(English Translation)
Beast/B2st 3rd mini album "Mastermind"
link:Clenching a Tight Fist

[Gikwang]
I told you to go, to go away I replied back to you that I didn’t like you because I thought I wasn’t going to see you again[Dongwoon]
I wanted to embrace you with my two arms, but I couldn’t do that Because I thought I was going to cry first
[Hyunseung]
We can live apart There is a farewell for us too Only the fake laugh is coming out
[Doojoon]
I will send you away So hurry up and go to be happy Clenching my fists tight, I started to cry
[Yoseob]
We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet I bit my lips at these cold icy words I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that
[Junhyung]
After that, the dreams of me finding you repeats again Just staring into your back, you don’t smile back looking at me I happily greet you even though there is no response from you I do this so that I won’t end up regretting after I wake up from this dream It isn’t easy to fill up a blank space The memories just shine a light to where you are Words that I don’t even mean anything, I send them to you Clenching my fists tight, Good luck to you
[Gikwang]
I didn’t know it was this hard walking back home My heart is too stuffed up
[Doojoon]
I need to live better I need to fight this off No matter how much I tell myself It is so hard because thoughts of you roam in my mind
[Yoseob]
We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet I bit my lips at these cold icy words I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that

[Hyunseung]
Even though I tell myself that I will forget a girl like you Even though I tell myself that I will never look at a girl like you But again I can’t forget you
[Yoseob]
We loved each other, we really loved each other Why are we breaking up like this? (Let’s not break up) Telling me that you couldn’t live without me, Telling me that you were going to die without me You, who used to say such things, Where did you go? Where did you go?


Hearing this song and repeating it ever since last week always bring tears into my swollen eyes.. i just don't know why.. these past few days, i feel empty.. i felt alone.. i felt hurt.... for the second time, i felt that my heart broke into a million pieces. this song COMPLETELY tells what i'm feeling.. i cried, hoping that my tears would come to a stop and everything will be okay again.. yet until now, my tears are somewhat telling me that they're infinite. they're endless.. they don't want to stop.. i didn't expect that a simple argument would end up everything.. i'm wasted. i always lose people who are so precious to me. sometimes i dont even want to hold onto them, fearing that i might lose them all in the end. no matter how much i put up my brave face, my poker face, my tears just ruins everything.. they just fall from my eyes without even asking permission from me. i am devastated. i feel like a bitch.. it hurts. losing him is my greatest misery.. thinking it would be okay, that time will heal the pain in my heart.. but i think it's wrong.. it's still here, triggering memories..im such a jerk. i was the one who shoved him away.. my pride got the best in me.. and now here i am, regretting every word, every letter i messaged him telling him to leave me alone.. i am an idiot.. i thought he's nothing but a nuisance to my life, but now that he's gone, i can't bear to view the world like i used to.. colors faded to grey.. everything is dark.. the beauty of the world became useless.. the pain just increases.. my chest wants to explode..i'm broken and nobody is there to fix me..i realized that when i was hurt back then, a nobody once became a somebody in my life.. but now he's gone.and now, i have no one to cling to.. i'm alone and hurt, dying because of my own mistake.